Slow start

I went to bed a bit early (couldn't make it through "Star Trek"; the story was about Diana Troii and I don't like her character) and woke up before 5 with an aching leg (calf area--getting the muscle back, I think) and tossed and turned, so I might nap before going to the Y to bicycle this morning.

Already several growth challenges in the morning--front page news about emerging considerations for cancer treatments, evidence that BP screwed up because they were trying to save money, and a bank overdraft notice that Aron's not balancing (again) his budget. The latter, of course, is the biggest hook I have to avoid because it's an old pattern that he cannot seem to break--even though his recent house move was supposed to lower his housing costs. Obviously, he is overspending on something else. I would so like to think he is "on his way" and I guess he is, but just not the path I prefer.

As to my path--I met with a younger UA colleague yesterday and was more open to a repeat of a suggestion he made to me earlier, that I should be writing about my community experiences so that the "next generation" can benefit from my knowledge. It's another indicator that I should write and I did break into my new writing book yesterday and got through several of the exercises, including drawing a mandala--pretty right brain stuff for me.

In yesterday's mail I just opened today, one of two ordered books came "Predictably Irrational" and I look forward to reading it. Also, got a large packet of materials for the NEH grant that starts in July. I am meeting with my friend/colleague later today and we'll go over those materials together. I also got a new writing magazine, so I can definitely "hear" the message from my Higher Power about what path I need to be walking--even if it is at a slow, awkward pace.

That is how I am beginning to walk around the house. I am leaning on the left side of the walker and trying to let go of the right, putting my weight on the leg, not my arm on the walker. It's a slog but I can carry something in my hand now. I don't like the ruddy color my foot/ankle still takes on when it is not raised but I guess circulation is still not normal. I can feel, along with sluggishness this morning, a bit of frustration with progress coming on, so I do need to get to the Y and do what I can to heal.

short today. and slow.